I never thought that ending high school would affect me like this, although I don't think that's all because of graduation. I kinda had a breakdown at work on saturday after I found out my friend (who just graduated too) was getting married, I didn't know she was dating anyone, and I'm just really worried about her, that kinda started it and then church on sunday...
It made me never want to go back again. It was like high school all over again, and the last thing I want to do is relive high school, but I'm still going to go because a lot of it was fun and some of the stuff sounds really fun... But I was just really disappointed also because sacrament was like whispered flirtation hour and I swear I was going to punch the girl in front of me (who will remain unnamed, but she's just obnoxious and I didn't want to see her again either) who wouldn't shut up! it was so rude, because the talk was really good...what I could hear of it.
I dunno, it's all just kind of building up (Mostly the part that I never wanted to see the people from high school again that are now in my ward, making me can't wait till they all go away to school!) but anyways that's my rant, i just kind of feel like I'm falling apart. And then there's like joe and other people like him and I see so much of their potential and it bugs me cuz I feel like I can't help them in any way, shape or form, and I don't get the point, if I can't even help them at all...
I don't know who I am, what I want to be, who I want to be...what I want to be like and I don't even know where to start. I'm trying to figure out what I think and feel, but I can't...So I'm going to go to the temple this wed with Haley and peoplez maybe that will help...